Day 61-65
December 18th-21st, 2010,
My god, I keep forgetting to do this. There’s just too much going on, and I’m just too busy. But I’m gonna try to work on this.
Day 59.
December 16th, 2010,
It’s getting harder everyday but I’m trying. I feel so hopeless. I really don’t want to keep doing this forever.
Day 54-57
December 10th-14th
I get distracted easily, and I’m somewhat lazy. And things are just hard so this isn’t put first. Things are complicated lately and I really don’t know how to explain that. I just feel weak, and alone like no one’s really there. I’m losing people by the minute, and life feels so unnecessary. I’m just trying to get through it all, and come out okay. I’m trying to put these hard times aside. But what happens when I’ve been saying this same thing for over a year? It hasn’t gotten better at all. It’s really only gotten worse. That’s what scares me.
Day 53.
December 9th, 2010,
It’s all way too confusing to handle. I don’t know what I’m feeling anymore.
Day 52.
December 8th, 2010,
I want answers, right here, right now. I wish I could just see you and talk to you. Even just for a couple minutes. I fucking need that.
Day 51.
December 7th, 2010,
It feels like it’s getting better. I don’t know though, I think it’s just that I’ve been surrounded by people all the time lately that I don’t have time for my depressing thoughts to drown me. I feel okay, sorta. But I really don’t know what to believe. I really don’t know how long this will last. I really don’t.
Day 50.
December 6th, 2010,
You know, it’s hard for me I’d admit. But at the same time, I don’t ever know how to fix it. I don’t think I will be able to fix it. It scares me sometimes that I’ll be like this forever.
